Life Change.

As most of you know life can throw curve balls at you. The past few years have been tough. I've had to go back and look at my life, rethink it so to speak. Since my last post allot has happened. Had another beautiful baby, a boy this time. Kipton Troy. Just when i thought i couldn't love anything or anyone as much as my daughter, Kipton was born and redefined my understanding of what my love was capable of. Soon after Kipton's birth. my wife of 14 years left. me. A little lost and allot confused, it forced me to look at my life and the choices I'd made up to this point. As my marriage was over and looking back it had been for quite some time. I just wasn't happy. Probably a major contributing factor in its demise. Had it not happened in the first place would i have been happier? Yes and No. i cant say i wished it hadn't because i wouldn't have had my two perfect baby's. but not having them right away left allot of years in the beginning that were pretty miserable. don't get me wrong not all of those early years were bad, but sadly most of them were. and then after having two beautiful and amazing children it didn't get any better. In moving on i have discovered allot about myself and in that i feel like i can give my children the love and attention they and I require. I have met someone that makes me happy and is the perfect opposite of my ex wife lol.

The Joy of Parenthood

My wife and I just became new parents.
Having tried to have babies for years and spending tens of thousands just to be told we would not be able to experience the joy of having our own biological children. We started a foster adopt program. Completing the twelve-week training classes and getting our certification the last step for us was for me to get a fingerprint clearance card, which the state would ultimately refuse me. Feeling this was our last option, we gave up giving in to the fact that it was going to be just us. As we love each other, very much we both felt like we had more love to give but it just wasn't going to happen. Than one day out of the blue we were at the hospital for an unrelated problem so we thought, our nurse comes in and tells us we were pregnant. As you can imagine we were both stunned. Our new little one is now one month old and we couldn't be happier. Its funny you hear how it is the most joy you'll ever feel when your child is born. I'm not sure I even came close to understanding that before. Not even threw most of her birth did I feel it, Hell I was to busy thinking to myself "don't pass out" but when my little girl popped out and I saw her perfect little face for the first time. I don't even have the words in fact I don't think I said a word. I cried as embarrassing as it was I couldn't help it.